A New Year

It hardly seems possible that we are into a new year. I have to admit that I’m grateful for that. While 2013 was lovely and we had many lovely adventure there were also challenges. Challenges that I didn’t see coming. It’s in my nature to be pretty positive and “go with the flow” which is why I wasn’t prepared for the fog.

At least that’s what I’m calling.

It began with some fairly strong feelings of guilt. Strong, consistent and unhealthy. After that I just kept feeling like I was spiraling downward. Not only did I not know what to do with these strong feelings of discouragement I also didn’t see a way out of them. It was horrible.

Added to all of this we had a few family members with some health problems and each of the children was having some “issues” I was trying hard to sort out. It was overwhelming to say the least.

I wish I could say I knew what it was that eventually moved me out of the fog. To be honest some days I’m not sure I’m completely out of it. I think it wasn’t really just one thing that moved me away from it. Instead a number of things. My “voice of reason” and loving husband. Supportive parents. Kids who consistently, and sometimes constantly, need me.

Timing is everything.

With this change of year, more than in the past, I’ve felt that urge to make changes. To resolve to try harder to be better. One of those “be better”s is concerning this blog. I need, and want, to be so much better. I hope that I can find balance between sharing past experiences over the past year and still share some of the now happenings.

With this new year I’ve also chosen a new word to focus on. It has come to me a few times over the past few months. It’s one I hope I can learn from and come to understand much better.

I hope I can come to understand how to not only handle my challenges with grace but learn and understand the grace provided to us by a loving Heavenly Father. That I can then allow myself and those around me a little more grace.

Here’s to another change. A new year.