Realization

Yesterday I had a realization.

I’m a lot little crazy.

I’ve been having this issue with my ears. I don’t want to say they hurt. Although I do at times have a freakishly high tolerance for pain. But they are just extremely uncomfortable. Which is different than hurting. Then when I hear loud noises they get even more uncomfortable. Which is a problem since the exact tone that Miss Thing makes when she is whining/yelling/moaning whether she is happy or sad is the exact sound that makes me want to scream. It’s like nails on a chalkboard. So I finally decided I needed to be seen by a doctor about it.

At the same time all of this has been happening Little Miss has been off her normal game. Last week she had a fever one day. Then the other night she was up from around midnight until 4:35 in the morning. The next day I noticed crusties around one of her ears. I knew right away she had an ear infection. Yesterday I called and got her an appointment. I wasn’t nervous sitting in that doctors waiting room because I knew that she had an ear infection. Without a doubt. What I didn’t know was that she has two, one in each ear. The point is that I was right.

But I was nervous sitting in the waiting room for my visit. Even though I knew something wasn’t right I was still fearful that he would say I’m crazy (which I already new at that point) and tell me there wasn’t anything wrong with me. Which is the same fear I had when I was in labor with The Boy and I thought they were going to send me home. Which was needless since I really was in labor. And my nervousness yesterday was needless too since there really is something wrong and I’m taking medicines to prove it.

I’m not sure why my mother’s intuition doesn’t work on myself. Because obviously it doesn’t. So now I know that I  need to pay more attention to myself. Either that or call my mother. Hopefully her mother’s intuition still applies to me.